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History to digest

April 07, 2008 By: endroo G Category: Personal No Comments →

A Sunday afternoon with granny and grand aunty proved to be very interesting as they shared stories which before this they were so reluctant to tell as they pledged with my late grandparents.

I got more understanding to the stories that my dad and aunts told before this. Grand aunty’s story is more “vivid” and insightful. She also said that grandad only left with all these histories and legacies.

Stories about the special talents of my grandad in handling self-defence “tools”. His military-precision in handling these “tools” is the thing that I am so eager to know more but it will never happen. The afternoon chat with them unveiled a lot of incidents that remained question marks in my mind even after reading that book.

I feel like setting up a video camera and record all these “interviews” with the old folks as I see all this as part of the family’s history and should be told to the generations after me. Just in case I forget some part of it.

I’ll arrange to visit the towns mentioned, Batu Gajah, Malim Nawar and Taiping with my granny and grand aunty soon…. hopefully can meet some old folks of their generation and listen to their stories.

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January 27, 2008 By: endroo G Category: Life, Personal Enter your password to view comments

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The i-don’t-know-what-title-to-put post

November 16, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal No Comments →

Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to thank those people who had given me advice on how to tackle the problem of longing for someone you loved who’s far far away. I’m feeling way better than at first. Any place that requires airplane is damn fucking far. Geez, do I need to tell you who I’m referring to? You need 26 hours of boat ride from Batam if you wanna go to Jakarta. If you experienced it before, you would know how was it, what I went through and stuffs like that.

Sometimes, after so many hours of thinking in the wee hours, I’ve finally come to understand why is it has to be like this. Maybe I am put to test by the Lord (do not bring us to the test, but deliver us from evil) for my patience, for my understanding of how a relationship should function, how to face hardship together (the pain of being apart for damn long) and the ultimate of all, the power of money. Yeah. Money can really cause happiness and sadness. You don’t just see it in TV. It really happen to any of us. I know it. We know it. A known fact. Also, I never ever been a fan of distance relationship for my whole life and I’m put to a very test of it… the Lord always has His reason for things. Like my accident, I escaped death because I would’ve been at Jogjakarta and there was a quake measured above 6 on the Richter scale in Java.

Afterall, maybe its just part of a relationship protocol, that you must go through ups and downs and then only you’ll realize how much you need each other at the end of the day. You’re up when seeing each together, down when you don’t see each other. Thats where emotional lifts come to play. It helps me and energize me. How many of you agree that a simple 3-worded text like “i miss you”, “thinking of you” or the old fashioned yet most powerful “i love you” can make you reach the star and pull one down. Especially if you get one in the morning, fuiyo, I bet your day would be brighter and merrier. You can’t get a kiss, so this is all that matter. We haven’t got 3G roaming on overseas networks. Communications is very very important to ease the agony.

Sometimes, you’d hope Doraemon really exist. If he exist, the Dokodemo door/pintu suka hati/anywhere door whatever you call it, is the only thing that I’ll die for… for that very door if mass produced, can make the global transportation industry to go bankrupt in an hour. Should that door exist, I won’t be here writing this post right now. Lets get back to reality. Well, I’m starting to take this as a challenge. And lets focus on what I’ll get in later days. Let me tell you something off topic, I had a yamcha session with Soo Lan, Min Dee and Towkay yesterday in hometown. Man…. Soo Lan’s kid, Julian is soooooooo cuuutttte. I’m so envy though I couldn’t do much but to grind harder now so that I can get one for my own as soon as possible. That would be an ultimate accomplishment.

Some of you may have experienced it before and have your very own way to comprehend such agony. Hope you can share your thoughts, your say, advice, counter measures here for the betterment of mankind. Those who never have a girlfriend/boyfriend being away before for so damn long so far far away, please don’t comment bullshit. I’ll delete the comment if I find it irrelevant. Hope this post can be available for anyone now, generations to come who have to be away from their significant half.

Thanks for reading my crap. I’m fine. Not smoking anymore but need a stout. ;) Cheers.

Armpit story

August 16, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal No Comments →

Went to Watson’s and bought a cream for hair removal. Then when taking shower, i tried to apply it on my armpit. Man, it burns. But then quite a number of strands of hair removed when i wiped it with a provided-in-package sponge. The hair just fell off. The cream smells like those chemical you found in a hair salon… maybe those bleach before you perm or dye your hair.

Though not all hair is gone yet… but at least it should be better than plucking it with a tweezer or shaving.

Can someone share some armpit hair removal with me… besides plucking it out.

The best things in life are free

July 31, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal 6 Comments →

Recently I was asked by some not-so-close friends why am I always with my gf and can’t you leave your gf for once and go hang out with them or someone else. Well, this is a relatively simple question to answer.

I asked myself what is more important: your gf or your friends who are sick enough to even ask the earlier question above. No one is more important right now other than her and my parents. I think thats the answer. Period.

My parents is not around here at the moment, so it is not wrong that during all my non-working time to be with my gf. I hate going home and see that Mr. Bin at home. I’ve got no choice. She may not like it but I just dont want to go home early. My buddies will not come out during the weekdays… so who else can I see on weekdays? Yes… my gf.

Is it that wrong or unhealthy to my life? Having 2 closest friends getting married soon… you would also wanna get married… just that the financial means are not stable yet. Just cant imagine what its like to have a home to go after work, where there’s a toddler to play with… and someone to cook for you. Simple little thing in life. Yeah.. I must be out of my mind for thinking all this. Now, thats the best thing in life.

To me, being with your loved one is the nicest thing in life. You may not agree, but thats how I see it. Just don’t want to be like before anymore..ever.

Poem from Szer

July 02, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal 8 Comments →

I remember the days when,
Emptiness fills me,
Head’s spinning from a night’s crawling,
When days’r spent on boozing.
The days when life had no meaning.

But then you cast a spell on me,
With your warm touch and gaze,
A gaze that says more than,
Any other man could utter.
That overwhelms this soul o’mine.

I may not say nor do the right things,
but believe that this heart weeps,
with the very thought of losing you,
When you’re absent in my sleep….
love, You put meaning in my life again.

Szer

The passing of a golden generation

June 27, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal 4 Comments →

Recently, I was told a story of the past generation… i mean my grandparent’s. My dad and his siblings knew about it since they were in their early adulthood. Well, my grandparents have long gone… not really… in this 3 years. They never told us.. me, my cousin and my bro about their younger days, how they met and fell in love and the family drama about their marriage etc.

After grandad’s gone, grandma did told some history about the family, events, what was grandad job, my great grandmother, my parent’s wedding, how I came to this world etc. Having lived in an era where the japanese dogs shouted “pangsai” in jubilation, the colonial master exploited our people, the misinformed society branded any bad guys as samseng (”three star” in Cantonese) in connection to the Malayan Communist Party and the May 13 saga . Ok. This is just to name a few instances. Grandparent thought that it was inappropriate to tell us about certain things of the past. People of their generation are very careful in what they gonna say because they have lived in all that time where you might get yourself in trouble if you said the wrong thing at the wrong time at the wrong place… so maybe they’re used to it. You get what I mean. However, they didnt bring everything to their grave. Dad, uncle and aunties knew it. The secret is still in this around.

I’m going nowhere in this post. I was told a secret which I’m not supposed to tell anyone.. even my best buddy. This is family matter anyway. I just wanna vent out my frustration for not being allowed to share it with you readers. Thats the purpose of this post. But I’ll adhere to my grandfather’s wish should he still alive. Afterall, he would have told us if its appropriate for us to know compromising the risk that we might tell everyone. I’m not gonna reveal any of that secret. Hahahahha.

Anyway, this post is dedicated to my grandfather and grandmother. If you both are reading this up there… I just want to tell you all, I’m proud of you all especially grandad…. who lived almost 80% of his life with a prosthetic leg and yet together with grandma, they managed to raise my father and his siblings. He was amputated from the thigh down of his right leg.

I made a point to myself that I won’t give any money to buggers or beggars or just anyone even if they are amputated. Come on…. some of this are bogus people… even if they are really in dire need…. i don’t give a shit. Grandad was also an amputee… and yet he managed to work to make ends meet and raised his 4 children… why can’t these buggers go get a job instead of begging??!!

I would call my grandad a jack-of-all-trade for he was the family plumber, carpenter, teacher (he’s good in mandarin and arts), gadget freak, brick layer cum gardener, mechanic, traditional doctor, and I lost track of what he can do. I’ll try to post some pictures in future to illustrate what he had done.

He helped us the grandchildren in our schoolwork, carpentry projects for the Kemahiran Hidup (Living Skills) lessons. There was also once he made that headlamp for me for my Kemahiran Hidup project. The school provided us with a bulb, bulb holder, wires, some aluminium foils and some manila card. I was only 10 years old and how was I to know how the electrical circuit work. So I ask him how to make that headlamp and I lost my bulb holder. I thought bulb holders were aplenty in the school I can ask for another one. Heck, only one provided and where to buy it? Is it expensive? So he used a pencil eraser in replace for the bulb holder. The next day when we submitted the project to the teacher, I was given a good mark. The teacher was amazed. Well, now we’d say thats kiddy stuff but then I was a kid then.. it meant a lot.

Grandad also did the plumbing work in our house, he made his own gadgets like torch lights for use if case of a car breakdown where you can connect it to the car’s battery. He made his own industrial-strength crutch which I think can be use to kill a buffalo. He repair his own prosthetic leg. You see, the foot of his prosthetic leg were made of wood. Over time, it would wear out hence you need a new foot. He’d get a block of wood somewhere and he’ll work on it for a month to carve a nice foot to be fix to the leg. Also he was a mechanic back then in his younger days… and his last car an old automatic transmission Datsun 120Y (the matchbox-like car) was in better condition than mine. Once my cousin drove it to MMU in Melaka in an hour plus. The accelerator pedal was on the left and the brake pedal on the right. Can you drive it? My crazy cousin did. I don’t even dare.

Then, he used to cure some asthma patient. I remembered he used to make herbal medicine and some people unknown to me will come and drink it. Grandma told me grandad will go and collect the herbs somewhere… I was too small to remember all this… I can’t really recall what herb was that although I’ve seen it. It was black’ish and dried.

He also used to work in a rattan (rotan) furniture shop ran by my grand aunt’s husband. Woohh… very complicated eh. The sofa set that still in good shape today in my uncle’s house was made by my grandad. Its more than 30 years already. Man… if you can afford… go and buy a rattan furniture for your living room… it’ll last you a lifetime.

He made these for his own pocket money and at times some will be for the church charity sale. Proceeds will go to the church funds. All these are made of aluminium cans.

A peacock or swan? I don’t know. This one can also be a candle holder.

Desktop christmas tree.

Each ship can fetch up to 70-90 ringgits.

Haahh… ok… I will not talk so much as you may be bored. Anyway, grandad introduced me todi when I was quite young… and I love todi to this day. No mixing with stout please. Just had some good todi last weekend with Szer and her friends at Teluk Gong.

Grandad, we are proud of you. Same goes to grandma. Rest in peace.

Lame Saturday Eve poem

May 18, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal 6 Comments →

I love you so much Szer and I would scream your name,
When I scream I feel not shame.
I wish you’re here with me,
When I see you I feel so gay and free

I love you so much Szer I’ll fly in the sky
Then the crow come takes my wings and I fall from the sky
I’m losing altitude, falling to the ground
I was caught by you and I’m lost in love when I’m found

I love you so much Szer I can’t control my thermometer
Cupid connected us with receiver drier
I am the condenser and you are the compressor
I hope we’ll be cool forever.

How to sleep and drive

May 08, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal 6 Comments →

Oh shit. I’m back with it again. I had an motor vehicle accident yesterday morning. I was sleepy. Arrghhh. My car is now lying in the collision repair centre.

Luckily it didnt happen on the highway or federal roads. I rear ended a Honda City which was parked on the roadside near my house. It was an experience you don’t wanna try. Luckily the third party car owner is sporting enough and took the case easily. Accident happens.

No, I did not take any picture of the scene. I did not sustain any injury. I’m ok. Its just a minor impact to me… the condenser’s gone and I couldn’t engage gear.

So, folks, the next time you feel sleepy while driving, please pull overand rest for a while. You can have a fag, eat some sweets, put the system up jamming to 50 Cent or Eminem, or just be a menace the other car next to you… he/she will then try to race and you can kill some sleeping time.

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April 25, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal Enter your password to view comments

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of late

April 19, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Bloggy, Personal 4 Comments →

Oh yeah. It will be tomorrow morning that we will journey to Temerloh. Just cant wait to breakaway from the city.

Yesterday watched The Number 23 with my Szer. Nowadays, spending time with her is better than spending time sitting in front of the computer. By the way, i’m not as wacky as before. I dont know what to write… nothing significant happen, for me to blog about. Mostly are all personal things which I ain’t gonna blog. I just lost my blogging passion. Wait, let me revive it after Gunung Senyum trip.

There was a lot of rage in my posts before but these days, I’m getting easier with people. I tried to avoid beef and just dont give a fuck in someone else’ affair. Although I would like to diss a friend who quarelled with his wife and now he just walked off his home and back to his mom’s place. He wanna divorce, end the relationship with his wife of 4 years. I dont know what to say.

Work place is ok. Workload is ok. Basically, not much stress at work. Just sometime, they want somthing urgent and you gotta rush like shit. Everyone are playing guns. I wonder if this month end there’ll be salary increment.

Got a call from my mum all the way from golders green that my aunt in 36 got into further pain… cancer (of malignant stage I guess). Gotta check it out with my other aunts. Arrgghghhh.

Then my parents been telling me about my cousin who’s studying in The School of Ox, had been seeing them quite often for consoling sessions… subsequent to a breakup with his girlfriend who currently is now in Czech Republic and befriended a local and they’re going out together.

Ok. Maybe I write again later. Sorry if this shit bores you down.

Szer, what are we eating tonite?

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Vietdroo

March 15, 2007 By: endroo G Category: Personal, Travel 5 Comments →

Oh yeah…. be going off to Singapore with her tonite and… then Vietnam. Woohoo. Not flying by Air Asia but Tiger Airways.